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father’s constant use of water bottle is driving me crazy! i even told him that his excessive use of water bottles is so bad for the environment. his head is convinced only bottled water is cleaner than using a plastic cup…therefore will not use a plastic cup…but will use Styrofoam cups, which can’t really be recycled….it’s driving me crazy. everything is does drives me crazy. is it necessary to use bottled water to make a cup of noodles? is it really necessary to use bottled water to make ice? really? seriously? when i told him that using water bottle to make ice is not much of a difference than using the home filtered water and his response was “do you use the ice every day?” as in “i do, so what i say goes” yea, that was what he was implying….still i almost wanted to say that since he is so adamant on using bottled water to make ice…he should make the ice himself since he seems to be the only one using ice.

i can no longer hold my tongue, whenever he talks or say something i don’t agree with, or i find fault in his statement…the fact that he stares, his rude comments about people who are not stick thin makes me want to talk back to him…..which i have on occasion. i just can’t keep it in anymore, i have held my tongue for too long and i am on the verge of explosion….he’s now just some guy living in the house…i can’t even talk nicely to him anymore, i talk to him through mother haha. it’s hard to be close to him when it was mother who basically raised my sisters and i, he just worked all day, everyday, and when he’s not working, his working on his car, out drinking or whatever…so never really saw him, or bonded with him. that’s why i am so much closer to mother….i could say the same with little sister haha….it’s not our fault we feel this way is it? i don’t think so. mother even said that one time she came home and found father drunk and passed out while he was suppose to be watching us. yea…..