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saying that i don’t do anything at home makes me mad because i do way more than anyone else aside from mother…..when parents are not home…i am the one cooking dinner, doing the dishes. but when the other two is at home they don’t do anything. so to say i don’t do anything….wow. ugh….feeling so unappreciative. i hate that they are so americanized. i’m old-fashioned, and traditional….at least i can cook. it was never a dream of mine to have a career. i never even thought about what i wanted to do career wise until i had to when everyone around me was picking out schools…..all i ever thought was living in the present, and getting married and having my own family. that was my future. of course i hardly ever tell anyone this because someone might think that it’s me being lazy…i told my bff who’s a full time stay at home mom and how it was my dream to do what she’s doing, and how one of my friend said it was lazy, she told me that he clearly has no idea what it’s like, it’s like having 5 jobs. my other friend told me that being a full time mom and stay at home wide is like having a phd….you are basically running your own ship. she told me that these days, it’s so hard, and rare to find girls like me because girls these days would rather work and make money then have a family…and can actually cook haha.

it’s always nice to talk to people who understand…..and feel that i can be completely honest about my future without feeling like i have to make something up by using my hobbies as a career choice because of fear of what they might think….and i am not one who cares about what people think, it’s just for some reason, this is a sensitive topic for me, and a dream that i want to protect. i don’t want to hear that it’s a lazy job, or whatever….so, whoever reads my tumblr post will know, and no one else. only three friends know of this :)